TMI Tuesday

1. When did you last use your cellular telephone as a flashlight?

I don't.

2. On a scale from 1-10, how comfy are you being naked?

Maybe an 8? It really depends on who else is around. Around men, I'm closer to a 9. Around women, I'm probably closer to a 7.

3. What is the longest you've ever been celibate after having lost your virginity?

Wait...people are celibate AFTER losing their virginity? Just kidding. Seriously, I lost my virginity when I was 13 (save the negative comments). That summer I told Reginald (yes, the one I'm fucking now...who was really just a good friend back then) that I thought I would stop having sex. His replied, "That's not going to happen. You've done it now. You're not going to stop." No truer words have ever been spoken. I have no idea what it's like to go without.

4. Have you ever had sex in a car? If yes, since you were a teenager?

Yes, I have. And yes, since I was a teenager. As a matter of fact, Jay and I had sex in the car yesterday at the end of our lunch date. I'm still writing that post.

5. When did you last use food or drink as medication?

I suffered from depression and though I'm on some really great anti-depressants right now, I still have some moody moments and some stressful ones to. I may have a drink, but most likely I eat something sweet. The last time would be Sunday. I ate carrot cake and a frozen fruit bar.

Bonus: Name three words that:

a) get you excited

Dick, Swallow (only when Reginald says it though), and Fuck

b) make you squirm

Horny, Lick, and ? (I'll have to think)

c) make you laugh

Sho-Nuff (had to be in my high school band to get it), Morning (in a really happy sing-songy voice - had to be on my girls only vacation to understand), ? (still thinking)

Happy Tuesday Everyone!!

24 Hours Later

There was a period when I hated being on top with Jay. It had nothing to do with him. It just didn't feel all that good. I'm not sure when that changed, but I like it again.

When I woke up Saturday. I playfully laid on top of Jay and kissed him...on his jaw, on his lips, on his neck, on his chest. I made my way down his body.

"Get him hard so you can ride," he said.

Always a stickler for following orders, I did just that.

12 Hours Later

I convinced Reginald to take an early lunch and meet me at his house. He met me at the door with one finger in from t of his mouth, shushing me immediately. I was intrigued and slightly turned on. I had ideas that this would be a "how quiet can you be?" session. We'd never done that before; mainly, because our sex is so intense that it's almost impossible not to be loud. Anyway, I was SO wrong. I took a closer look in his direction. In the other hand, he was waving his Blackberry. He was on a conference call! Thus, the need to be quiet. I had to giggle (silently, of course). I had promised him a blow job, so we made our way over to the couch. He unbuttoned his jeans and sat down. I wasn't sure how I was going to manage to quietly perform fellatio. With the phone on mute. I took his dick in my mouth, easing it to the back of my throat. I took him in and out of my mouth and hungrily sucked his balls. I wanted to swallow him whole. He grabbed my hair and softly said my name. Just as I was thinking this whole conference call/dick sucking session was going to work out really well, a question was asked; one which he had to answer. He stood up to get the phone which he lain on the arm of the couch. He quickly answered, ending the call. He looked my way and said, "Take off your pants." I did as I was told and bent over on front of the couch. He returned, positioned my knees on the couch and commenced to pounding my pussy as I came over and over. Abruptly, he pulled out and turned me over. He stood in front of me and raising my waist to meet him. He entered me as I came again. He pulled out and rubbed his dick across my clit, making me cum yet again. He entered me again. I looked up at him and said, "We are not supposed to be having sex. I just came over to give you a blow job." His response? "Do you want me to stop fucking you?" To which I replied, "NO!" and came AGAIN. He asked, "Did you cum?" I managed to pant a positive response. He pulled out and, holding my hand, pulled me to him. I eagerly took his dick in my mouth again. I wanted him to feel as good as I did. I wanted to feel his juices in my mouth. I was soon rewarded. He came. I could feel my mouth fill with liquid as I kept my mouth gripped around his shaft. I continued to perform my duties as he moaned and swayed. When I was certain he could take no more, I stopped. I quickly dressed and said goodbye. My task had been accomplished. Job well done.

Wanna Go Outside?

He was alone..outside, surrounded by the foggy mist of the night. I approached. He grabbed the front of my jeans and pulled me closer. I undid my button and pushed his hand inside my pants. I grabbed his head and brought his lips to mine, kissing him hungrily. Removing my hand from his head he placed it inside my panties, replacing his. I rubbed my clit as I continued to kiss him, leaning him against the back of his car.

Suddenly, I pulled away and walked to the front of the car. He followed. Leaning against the hood of his car, I pushed my pants down revealing my pussy. I turned away from him. Bending over the car, I brushed my round ass against his pants. I heard the familiar sound of his zipper. Reaching behind me, I grabbed his dick and began caressing his shaft. He spun me around and pushed me down to my knees. I took him in my mouth. I grabbed his ass and pushed his penis to the back of my throat. I sucked his balls as he moaned my name. Standing me up, he pulled one leg out of my jeans, and lifted me onto the hood of the car. As I continued massaging my clit, he plunged his fingers into my wet pussy...all the while stroking his manhood with his other hand. Then, it happened...my breathing quickened, my heart raced. Just as I was about to explode, I felt the warmth of his dick entering me. He fucked me hard with long, practiced strokes. I wrapped my legs around his waist and moved in rhythm. The intensity increased until my juices spilled out and covered his dick. Thoroughly spent, I climbed off the car, struggled to gain my composure as I pulled my pants back on. Having accomplished my goal, I told him good night and went back into the house.

I climbed into bed with a smile, completely satisfied. I'm not sure if any of the neighbors witnessed our lustful display, but if they did I hope they enjoyed the show. I sure did!

HNT - Entangled Part Deux

A few weeks ago, I posted a picture of Jay's friend and me all entangled. I thought I'd keep it going and post a continuation. Ah, the memories...

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Open For Business...Think Again

I mentioned when I got back online that Jay had decided to give having an open marriage a try. I have come to learn that this was only a half-hearted try. He still has way too many issue with an open marriage for this to work. For some reason, despite my assurance to the contrary, he has it in his head that I NEED to start a new LIFE with others. I don't want a life with anyone else. I look at my adventures outside the marriage the same as I would a new hobby. If a friend wants to see me and it doesn't interfere with anything that Jay and I or the kids and I have planned, and I'm in the mood, then I'll go. My friends are not here to take the place of him or our life. They are here to enhance our lives. When I'm in the mood to be man-handled (which Jay doesn't really like to do), Reginald provides that release. I come home calm and relaxed because I have gotten out all of that aggression. When I just need to talk about Reginald or the new girl I met, I can text or call PD. Jay doesn't want any info on the other people in my life, so I can't come home and talk to him. PD is also good for mind-blowing cunnilingus (something Jay does, but PD does better). When I want the softness of a woman...well, I don't have a woman in my life right now, but obviously Jay can't give me that.

On the other hand, when I want to share my innermost feelings, when I want to make love and cuddle after, when I want to just sit and enjoy the meaningful silence and the closeness it brings, I turn to Jay. He is my world. I love him with all my heart. I can't imagine living my life with anyone else.

The funny thing is, since Jay gave the okay, I have only had sex once. I haven't even been in the same room with anyone else. I did way more before he gave the okay. Granted, I was sick during part of this time, but still. I have been trying to be very conscious of his feelings and not just run wild. I wanted him top feel secure in his decision. Obviously, that has backfired on me.

I've even tried to explain my feelings by relating it to his feelings when he had sex with other women in the past. (We have even had a FMF polyamorous relationship with him as the hinge in our V.) He response was that he now sees how that was wrong too. WTF?!? We have been open, at least on his end (and me with women), since we were dating. Now, because I have an interest in have a male FWB, it's suddenly wrong and takes away from our marriage.

So, now I face a dilemma. Do I continue with the open marriage knowing that Jay is not dealing well with the idea? Do I tell him that I've decided to just let the idea go? And, if so, do I truly let it go or do I cheat?

Sunshine has a lot of thinking to do.

To Do List

I sent this to PD one night while we were sending IMs back and forth. I thought I'd share it here.

To Do:
See me
Touch me
Feel me
Hold me
Taste me
Lick me
Fill me
Fuck me

Simple and to the point.

My Computer and I are Healthy Once Again

My computer and I have both been sick; thus, explaining my absence from blogland. Not sure what exactly was wrong with the computer, but I had a killer sinus infection. Hubby was very supportive (taking care of me and nursing me back to health). PD and Reginald were very understanding (no sex on the side for them). But...I woke up Friday morning with my hand in my panties - a sure sign that I'm feeling better.

In the meantime, Hubby agreed to being open. YAY!!!

So, tomorrow I will be back out there...healthy, happy, and open to all that comes my way.